Healing

I have always had the urge to write. I have not always listened to this urge. Now I am writing away my thoughts and feelings again. It helps me. I am starting this new blog with hope and optimism. I am looking for the beautiful, hopeful, funny or lovely moments in life. And I want to share my insights, my quirks and opinions with you. But first I will start with a recent poem about my state of mind. This is where I am now.

Healing 

Slowly the world starts making sense again 
I feel the sun on my face 
I smile at strangers and they smile back 

Some days I manage to pick myself up 
I hear a beautiful song, I sing and dance along
my body hesitantly remembers 

I started cooking (and caring) for myself again 
I smell heavenly risotto and savour tasty mead 
I am glad to break the depressing spell of ready-made meals 

I bask in the warm feelings of friendship and love 
of people who really care about me 
They ease the pain and loss and loneliness 

I look at my body that I hated for a while 
and instead of being judgemental and unkind 
I acknowledge its beauty and appreciate it is there for me and I can breathe and walk and even dance again 

There is much to be happy for and about 
A bruised and battered heart can find it hard to remember what or why 
Every bruise can heal over time 

I don't know why life is so unfair sometimes 
I don't know the answers 
I know I can get through this, day by day, step by step 

Every stumble and every deep dark hole can be over won 
The good times will be sweeter because of those hardships 
I am stronger and more understanding than I ever was 

but I still wish this series of unfortunate events hadn't happened...